well, i must have posted atleast 3 blogs earlier about 'the guide', either inspired by it, or just after putting it down. why not, especially if each and every page is loaded with so much of inspirations and just plain wacky distractions, that it has become quite essential part of my day to day life.
i confess i don't read much more than a few pages each day, but it has always left me content and happy...take this part that i was reading today...
a conversation in 'life, the universe, and everything' book, that an eager to please mattress, yep mattress, is having with Marvin, the paranoid Android...
after several unsucessful attempts at having a conversation with Marvin, the mattress says to Marvin. ...'You have something in your mind, I think'
'More than u can possibly imagine... my capacity for mental activity of all kinds is as boundless as the infinite reaches of space itself. Except of course for my capacity for happiness'
After a few moments Marvin adds 'My capacity for happiness, you can fit into a matchbox without taking out the matches first'
:-) Douglas, you'll live forever... thank you for 'the guide'.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
seen 6, not planning to see 7th for now
heard that there are 7 gates to hell.. well, if there is, then i must have seen atleast 6 of them.. don't know, don't remember. but not planning to see the seventh one, unless somebody takes me back there.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Need to find 'spine'
In blogging and else where, have been guilty of dropping thoughts, doing things, and often get that 'what am I trying to do/say here' question pop up.... read this blog which hits the target. While it can be a painful realization, to be spineless, reading it makes me think about what direction my thoughts/actions are trying to say...nothing i guess. still, this thought (having a spine to our thoughts/actions) can be useful at times to put things in perspective, and put forth a compelling argument or point across, if we know what exactly we want to say. Easy to say, now got to walk the talk.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
365-14
14 day week.... that's how long this year's been so far! and still feels like there's a long way to go for the weekend.
Gloomy thoughts..
it must surely be a miracle how one day at office can suck so much euphoria out of you that at the end of the day you are left dazed, and empty.
started the day with such a high, great day, great thoughts, some original ideas that can be brought to the table etc etc. then, reality strikes!
more people means more thoughts. more thoughts means more tangents, more tangents means big messy problems! problem with reality is that things almost always doesn't happen the way you plan, you think! yeah, i know, that's life.. but then what I don't ever plan for is the 'no response' syndrome. I can plan for contingencies, for a yes or no, but not for the no response part. then, to push through our thoughts, ideas, we try to 'sell' it to them by making it appealing it to them, and then get ultimately caught up in the gloom part!
Life is tough out there in the corporate world.
started the day with such a high, great day, great thoughts, some original ideas that can be brought to the table etc etc. then, reality strikes!
more people means more thoughts. more thoughts means more tangents, more tangents means big messy problems! problem with reality is that things almost always doesn't happen the way you plan, you think! yeah, i know, that's life.. but then what I don't ever plan for is the 'no response' syndrome. I can plan for contingencies, for a yes or no, but not for the no response part. then, to push through our thoughts, ideas, we try to 'sell' it to them by making it appealing it to them, and then get ultimately caught up in the gloom part!
Life is tough out there in the corporate world.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
a promise kept.. for now!
made all kinds of crazy wishes when this damned comp was conked!
one of the things that I promised myself was that I'd post this blog in my Orkut profile, if i ever got it started... d-uh, now i'm having second thoughts...
oh well, here it goes, done that now.......... i mean, how bad can it be... friends already know me for how crazy i am..... not so close buddies, well u can sure have a laugh at my expense, if u got around to reading any or some of my blogs...
for best results, start from first blog onwards... recent blogs haven't been, er.. for better choice of words, well thought of.
also, yeah, lots of spelling errors and what not in many of my blogs... was too lazy to word it and then put it here, or even spellcheck it here... so apologies in advance for that.
cheers...... and hey, do drop me a note if there's anything that u r gonna hold me to or quote me later on!
one of the things that I promised myself was that I'd post this blog in my Orkut profile, if i ever got it started... d-uh, now i'm having second thoughts...
oh well, here it goes, done that now.......... i mean, how bad can it be... friends already know me for how crazy i am..... not so close buddies, well u can sure have a laugh at my expense, if u got around to reading any or some of my blogs...
for best results, start from first blog onwards... recent blogs haven't been, er.. for better choice of words, well thought of.
also, yeah, lots of spelling errors and what not in many of my blogs... was too lazy to word it and then put it here, or even spellcheck it here... so apologies in advance for that.
cheers...... and hey, do drop me a note if there's anything that u r gonna hold me to or quote me later on!
No to no...
Seems even my comp couldn't handle the overdose of blogs that i posted some time back... a long story short.. it conked, and teasingly so, only to appear almost to work every time i boot it, and then boom! everytime...
well, thanks to my crazy functioning brain, and some god forsaken part of myself that just said, gotta be a workaround this! and viola, here i am, blogging at unearthly hours....
lesson learnt, never ever give up, especially on the ones that are near to you, even on ur comp. more importatnly got a chance to say yep, i did it.
another lesson learnt, well, i can maybe end up as a techie too... hey boss, are u listening?? :)
well, thanks to my crazy functioning brain, and some god forsaken part of myself that just said, gotta be a workaround this! and viola, here i am, blogging at unearthly hours....
lesson learnt, never ever give up, especially on the ones that are near to you, even on ur comp. more importatnly got a chance to say yep, i did it.
another lesson learnt, well, i can maybe end up as a techie too... hey boss, are u listening?? :)
Friday, January 09, 2009
The Whiskey Priest: some random definitions
Dedication
War
Love
Greed
Peace
Opinion
Belief
Desperation
War and Peace can’t be enemies, but brothers. When one succeeds the other is but jealous…. It is the same people who sow the seeds of peace that reap the harvest called war, and vice versa. The father to both must then be dedication; without it both cannot endure.
Where is love then? It must be the consort/wife of peace, just as greed must be the consort/wife of war.
Opinion! In itself, its just a tool to justify your belief in anything. But then, nobody parts with opinion without their set of beliefs, which can be either honey dipped or poison dipped as you take it…..
Desperation must be the consort of dedication, for it drives you to form an opinion and ultimately dedicate yourself to your beliefs.
This is the point where I got sober.
War
Love
Greed
Peace
Opinion
Belief
Desperation
War and Peace can’t be enemies, but brothers. When one succeeds the other is but jealous…. It is the same people who sow the seeds of peace that reap the harvest called war, and vice versa. The father to both must then be dedication; without it both cannot endure.
Where is love then? It must be the consort/wife of peace, just as greed must be the consort/wife of war.
Opinion! In itself, its just a tool to justify your belief in anything. But then, nobody parts with opinion without their set of beliefs, which can be either honey dipped or poison dipped as you take it…..
Desperation must be the consort of dedication, for it drives you to form an opinion and ultimately dedicate yourself to your beliefs.
This is the point where I got sober.
Some Sufi Gems
I'm never really into very many religious preaching, and sayings... i mean i read through them to find some inspiration - my kind of sayings are mostly those which cut across religious backgrounds and just address you as a person - irrespective of any religion you are. Those are my kind, and was glancing through this Osho magazine where there were a lot of Sufi sayings and preaching and so on..
some really good ones which i could sort of feel it reaching me were:
'the state of nearness is the state when you fall silent, when voices in your head disappear, evaporate, when thoughts leave you, desert you, when you feel utterly alone, not even shadows of others are present; when you are at the verge of disappearing; that is called the station of nearness!'
then....
'when you move into some inner work, your old uncertainties disappear because your old mind starts losing its hold on you and you will become uncertain...'
and this final one...
'rejoice in your sadness, because this is the gift of god at this particular time. It must be a need, because nothing happens without your need. You must need this climate, this moment. This is how God wants you to be..'
some really good ones which i could sort of feel it reaching me were:
'the state of nearness is the state when you fall silent, when voices in your head disappear, evaporate, when thoughts leave you, desert you, when you feel utterly alone, not even shadows of others are present; when you are at the verge of disappearing; that is called the station of nearness!'
then....
'when you move into some inner work, your old uncertainties disappear because your old mind starts losing its hold on you and you will become uncertain...'
and this final one...
'rejoice in your sadness, because this is the gift of god at this particular time. It must be a need, because nothing happens without your need. You must need this climate, this moment. This is how God wants you to be..'
Monday, January 05, 2009
Obituary
Frasier is an teleseries which I love watching, especially when I'm down and out and need to give my mind a gentle nudge or two to start working again. The humor in it is very carefully crafted, and the quips and retorts along with their 'message' to tell, set the show to something which gives me lots to think of.
In one of the later seasons Frasier is accidentally thought of to be dead in an identity mix up, and goes through the ordeal of going through his own obituary in the papers the next day. Of course it gets him to do crazy stuff, 'live' his life, blah blah,.... but the real deal was with when his Dad gives a slap to his new overzealous enthusiasm by asking him that with this quest for filling up the pages on how you want others to think about you, are you really living your life? Gotta admit, it's a slam dunk show, I'm sure it would have got many thinking about it... it sure got me.
Not really sure how my obituary is going to read, but something that I value is that there should be a handful of worth wile moments of my life that string together as memories for the ones I care. That is one side of the coin. The other side is how I 'live' my life. Its surprising how these two can be so interconnected, if you think about it.......
Think about it!
In one of the later seasons Frasier is accidentally thought of to be dead in an identity mix up, and goes through the ordeal of going through his own obituary in the papers the next day. Of course it gets him to do crazy stuff, 'live' his life, blah blah,.... but the real deal was with when his Dad gives a slap to his new overzealous enthusiasm by asking him that with this quest for filling up the pages on how you want others to think about you, are you really living your life? Gotta admit, it's a slam dunk show, I'm sure it would have got many thinking about it... it sure got me.
Not really sure how my obituary is going to read, but something that I value is that there should be a handful of worth wile moments of my life that string together as memories for the ones I care. That is one side of the coin. The other side is how I 'live' my life. Its surprising how these two can be so interconnected, if you think about it.......
Think about it!
Friday, January 02, 2009
unmarried bachelor
i realized today, after 27 years 6 months of my existance in this world, that being unmarried is not the same as being a bachelor.
i envy the people who are yet to find out the difference, and pity those who have!
that's one less complication that i could do without, thank you very much...
hence the emphasis of the term unmarried bachelor on one of my earlier blogs....
i envy the people who are yet to find out the difference, and pity those who have!
that's one less complication that i could do without, thank you very much...
hence the emphasis of the term unmarried bachelor on one of my earlier blogs....
what do you get when....
what do you get when you have two chinese, an american, and a indian, sitting in a room on an african rug?
sample of the world!
in case you were wondering why there's an american, its coz they've got to be on anything that represents this world! otherwise the fourth guy would have also been an indian!
i guess that's why we're good at this outsourcing thing!!. we do the work, americans will take the credit! no problemo.
in case you are not wondering, then too bad for reading till this! :)
sample of the world!
in case you were wondering why there's an american, its coz they've got to be on anything that represents this world! otherwise the fourth guy would have also been an indian!
i guess that's why we're good at this outsourcing thing!!. we do the work, americans will take the credit! no problemo.
in case you are not wondering, then too bad for reading till this! :)
2 reasons to why recession has not impacted india
1. arranged marriage - independent sustaining economy on its own, not yet impacted by the recession.
2. the namesake....no.2 (didn't get it?? duh, black money) - the reason why 1st reason is not yet impacted....
think about it... hey man, guess what, market is going nowhere right now, so career is also going nowhere, so thought i might as well get married! (boing!). after wedding, the dude will be like recession, who me? screw it man, lets go to party in New Zealand for all i care!
any laws to brings these under control will result in a massive meltdown of indian economy, and has a consequential global ripple effect potential ... afterall, we indians are everywhere in this world!!
oh, and if u are an indian, and have missed the bus on any one of the 2, drop a note.... lets compare notes.
(FYI... i'm unmarried bachelor, so there's only one point relevant to me at the moment!)
2. the namesake....no.2 (didn't get it?? duh, black money) - the reason why 1st reason is not yet impacted....
think about it... hey man, guess what, market is going nowhere right now, so career is also going nowhere, so thought i might as well get married! (boing!). after wedding, the dude will be like recession, who me? screw it man, lets go to party in New Zealand for all i care!
any laws to brings these under control will result in a massive meltdown of indian economy, and has a consequential global ripple effect potential ... afterall, we indians are everywhere in this world!!
oh, and if u are an indian, and have missed the bus on any one of the 2, drop a note.... lets compare notes.
(FYI... i'm unmarried bachelor, so there's only one point relevant to me at the moment!)
tip to understand humans...
watch animal planet/natgeo/any other animal channel. seriously, u'll be surprised! i was! the other day my roommate flipped it on and was engrossed in their antics, their hunting rituals and so on.... well, i got to understand and relate it to people - friends, family, not so dear ones....
i guess its coz they are smarter than humans, who spend their sixth sense, trying to hide and conceal their five senses.
gods idea of a cruel joke, or a random experiment, get a bunch of lions, dogs, rats, buffaloes, jackasses and others, make them all alike (humans), then throw them in a world, and wait, add an additional sense just to make things more interesting!! go on, wise guy, solve this!
back to the story, so anyways, these 'animals' with fewer senses, are atleast distinct by their behaviour (u know, not every cat is a lion... :) sorry, couldn't resist this one! somebody once important to me said this to me once...), and u can actually use these channels to undersand and handle people better, if u r having difficulty seperating the buffaloes from jackasses of this world.
seriously, let me know if this works.... :-)
i guess its coz they are smarter than humans, who spend their sixth sense, trying to hide and conceal their five senses.
gods idea of a cruel joke, or a random experiment, get a bunch of lions, dogs, rats, buffaloes, jackasses and others, make them all alike (humans), then throw them in a world, and wait, add an additional sense just to make things more interesting!! go on, wise guy, solve this!
back to the story, so anyways, these 'animals' with fewer senses, are atleast distinct by their behaviour (u know, not every cat is a lion... :) sorry, couldn't resist this one! somebody once important to me said this to me once...), and u can actually use these channels to undersand and handle people better, if u r having difficulty seperating the buffaloes from jackasses of this world.
seriously, let me know if this works.... :-)
destiny!
sorry, couldn't resist this one... :)
this destiny thing that i wrote in a blog earlier got me thinking, this guy who brought up this destiny thing, the guy who discovered/invented, (depends on how 'spiritual' you are), must be one wasted useless bum, who resolved to do nothing and then feel good about it too!!! :)
imagine, doing nothing for your entire life while everyone around u slogs their butt off, and then claim that it was ur 'purpose' on earth!. hmm, feels like driving a car downslope - piece of cake, with a cherry on top!
this destiny thing that i wrote in a blog earlier got me thinking, this guy who brought up this destiny thing, the guy who discovered/invented, (depends on how 'spiritual' you are), must be one wasted useless bum, who resolved to do nothing and then feel good about it too!!! :)
imagine, doing nothing for your entire life while everyone around u slogs their butt off, and then claim that it was ur 'purpose' on earth!. hmm, feels like driving a car downslope - piece of cake, with a cherry on top!
machan, i didn't say this!
if there's one thing that i credit myself for having is guts, yep, u read right... guts!! its takes that living up to the words that i say and commit to!.. (don't believe me??, watch the yes man.... i'm like a cross between that guy and the jim carrey of liar liar! shoot mouth off, then slog ass to back it up... i know, whew!)
so here's one more confession, my real fundu reason why blogging makes sense is that, i always look back at my life through these windows, and know the messed up kind of thoughts that was on my head.. sometimes my head swims so much with thoughts that blog serves more of a pensieve purpose, keep it here, so that next day i don't forget this thought! coz sometimes several 'insights' recorded helps! and i'm doing that, free of charge, right here... now u know why its called reallyhavetoblogthis.
so here's one more confession, my real fundu reason why blogging makes sense is that, i always look back at my life through these windows, and know the messed up kind of thoughts that was on my head.. sometimes my head swims so much with thoughts that blog serves more of a pensieve purpose, keep it here, so that next day i don't forget this thought! coz sometimes several 'insights' recorded helps! and i'm doing that, free of charge, right here... now u know why its called reallyhavetoblogthis.
Thursday, January 01, 2009
theories and theories... a new resolution.
the frightening part about lot of theories is that, if u are on a quest to prove it right, what if it proves to be?
i mean, take this chessboard theory that i have, for example - that people are coins on other people's boards on other people's life... u might just appear as a pawn to ur boss for instance, unless u prove ur worth, and then u 'upgrade' to something more valuable... and so on. and ur value differs from perspective of each of ur friends,family and basically everyone (its my theory to why fame, noticablity etc counts for more in this world, coz then more people find useful to have you on their 'board'), if i embark on a quest to prove this right, i might end up trying to expose a hole in their board by moving out, and hence proving that i was worth more than a 'pawn' or whatever they are considering me at the moment, where does that leave me?? hell yeah, right outside the board!!! like i need that. its makes me feel like that eureka guy, who is as famous as discovering some weird theory, as he was for running naked on the streets shouting eureka..... (so sorry archimedes (just googled it up now), but i kinda never could get past the part of u being a streaker to dwelve on your theory....)
so shelved worrying on theories and trying to prove people that i'm smart enough to figure out whatever coin i might be on their board.... and instead resolved, as a good friend of mine just put it, to screw life! i'm gonna do what's best for me, and work my up the rest from that... i guess i'll eventually end up at where i'm destined to, so might as well enjoy time till then. so gonna be a freelancer, one goal, take the ride as long as its going in the same direction as mine.... theories? who cares if they're right? Not me!
i mean, take this chessboard theory that i have, for example - that people are coins on other people's boards on other people's life... u might just appear as a pawn to ur boss for instance, unless u prove ur worth, and then u 'upgrade' to something more valuable... and so on. and ur value differs from perspective of each of ur friends,family and basically everyone (its my theory to why fame, noticablity etc counts for more in this world, coz then more people find useful to have you on their 'board'), if i embark on a quest to prove this right, i might end up trying to expose a hole in their board by moving out, and hence proving that i was worth more than a 'pawn' or whatever they are considering me at the moment, where does that leave me?? hell yeah, right outside the board!!! like i need that. its makes me feel like that eureka guy, who is as famous as discovering some weird theory, as he was for running naked on the streets shouting eureka..... (so sorry archimedes (just googled it up now), but i kinda never could get past the part of u being a streaker to dwelve on your theory....)
so shelved worrying on theories and trying to prove people that i'm smart enough to figure out whatever coin i might be on their board.... and instead resolved, as a good friend of mine just put it, to screw life! i'm gonna do what's best for me, and work my up the rest from that... i guess i'll eventually end up at where i'm destined to, so might as well enjoy time till then. so gonna be a freelancer, one goal, take the ride as long as its going in the same direction as mine.... theories? who cares if they're right? Not me!
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